I should really get back to blogging to get my writing mojo back. Why? Because Insya'Allah I'll be doing a lot of writings in the near future (which I am currently doing). Trust me, writer's block ain't fun when you're under pressure and pressed with deadlines. Whatever it is, I pray that Allah SWT keeps me strong and increase my level of patience. On another note, I need to be really organized. I noticed that I'm such a slob and very messy under certain circumstances. Can't deal with that. No no no.

Work has been great! For you who didn't know this tiny little info yet, I am interning at CLEO Magazine to complete my practical training course assessment. So far, I am having a blast! Picking out clothes, fashion shoots, meeting and getting to know retail personnel while loaning and returning borrowed fashion items and familiarizing myself with the industry. I do get to write and Insya'Allah my name will pop-out (along with my fashion editor's name) in some of the columns - check out CLEO's May issue, fashion section. I think I'm beginning to realize that my interest does lay within writing and not just writing about fashion per se. I LOVE FASHION but I am beginning to doubt my capabilities on writing about it. I need more exposure. I need to read more. I need time.

But hey, so far, I have no complaints. I'll be telling a lie if I say everyday's great - I swallow the not-so-fun times along with the experience. I'm growing, learning and teaching myself. I don't expect myself to understand everything in a go. I learn from the mistakes and the hard times. I cherish the good experience. Allah SWT will always be there for me, I believe that. SubhanAllah.

So I've been accepted to do my practical training at CLEO. I am definitely excited and anxious about it. I mean, why won't I be? I've been dreaming about working at a fashion magazine ever since I could remember (though I did have other ambitions when I was in school). I don't necessarily have the best style. Honestly, my choice of outfit is a plain anything. Nothing glamorous or frilly or even patterned. I guess my best asset is my good eye. I have an eye for things. It's more instinctive than skilled. I hope it does me good when I'm working this Thursday. May Allah SWT bless me with confidence and a smooth sail through it all. Amin.

I'm gonna share a bit of my birthday photos. It's not much, but it means a lot because you'll get to see the people who really matter to me (plus they know how much I love my birthday and how much birthdays mean to me).

P.S: Photos are a mish-mash of everything from dining to gifts

My 23rd birthday just passed and it was simply simple ;). I loved how moderate everything was from the celebration to the gifts. It's good to know that the people who matter most, will always be there for me, no matter how lonely or alone I feel. I am more than grateful that Allah SWT has granted me so many blessings and to wake me up every single day without a worry. It is unfortunate to say that my efforts towards the Almighty doesn't even come close to what I've been given. To the prayers that were sent out for me, I pray that together we strive to be a better ummah, every single day, little by little, bit by bit, changing and heading towards the correct path. Amin.

I should have gotten my period by now, but nooooo. All the hunger pangs, food cravings and mood swings are all for nothing. My hormone stability or lack of it is taking its toll on my body. For starters, my health regime is out the window. Hunger pangs every hour is not good (which sorta leads to binging). Not only that, if the food I'm eating does not satisfy my cravings, the hunger won't go away. It's ridiculous I tell you! My mood swings are a whole other story. Symptoms are: annoyed, angry, paranoid, pissed, and sensitive. It's kind of like my normal emotions but multiply it by 100.

It's like everything is tied together. For example, if I don't get my food, I feel weak and pissed. But if I do, and I eat a lot to satisfy my hunger, I get depressed and restless. Please tell me there's nothing wrong with me. Get me a doctor.

I've been eating a lot lately (mainly it's because of my unstable hormones [normal when it's near to that time of the month]). I've been beating myself up because I kept a promise to myself to try and change my eating habits and I have been doing very well, up till a few days ago. Thankfully, my weight hasn't gained any significant weight but still, it's really getting to me.

Not only that, sitting around and doing nothing stresses me up too. I can't seem to relax anymore. I just have to get up and do something. Relaxing just doesn't seem to be an option anymore. Unless I've been doing a lot of things or make use of myself for the day THEN I can relax. Symptoms of turning 23, I guess? Is this normal?

I've been losing a bit of focus lately. It's frustrating really. It's nearly that time of the month so my hormones are running amok especially concerning my eating habits. Problem is, it's not even here yet. I've been experiencing problems about it cause it's ON/OFF. Kejap ada, kejap tak ada. It's annoying, really. It didn't come at all in December and I'm hoping February won't experience the same thing. It's messing with my emotions, no kid. Restless, nervous, sensitive, disoriented, confused, angry etc. I wish I was making this up, but I'm not. Let's hope for the best, shall we? Hormones, PLEASE STOP MESSING WITH ME!

My birthday is coming up! I've always loved birthdays, I mean, what's not to love, right? I've never been the sadist type that hates birthday and have bad and horrible stories about it. Anywho, I'm turning 23 in a week! I've had the best birthdays and this year, I just want to be with close family. Dinner and presents! I'm a bit enthusiastic when it comes to my birthday, though I don't expect much from it (since I guess I'm too old for it). Feel like getting something for myself though. Let's see:

1. Pyjamas

2. New charms for my bracelet

3. Lose another 1kg

4. Get Benefit's One Hot Minute and Urban Decay's Honey Body Powder

5. A haircut

That isn't too much to ask, right? ;)

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